| When I was 14 a friend went to see
Billy Graham. Some thing made me ridicule her; this was completely out of
character. She told Sister Angela who was in charge of the Baptist Church in
Harold Hill who replied that I was the devil tempting her. This made me angry,
furious, inquisitive, in fact everything it was meant to do. I went to that
Church to see who this stupid woman was and stayed for three years going three
times each Sunday and taking Bible classes. |
| Boys then interrupted this holy state.
However all through my life I never forgot that time and was drawn towards
Christianity but was too lazy to do any thing about it. |
| In 1988 a friend asked me
to her baptism. I immediately knew that I had found what I had been,
unknowingly, looking for. When I was 16 I wanted to be baptised, my mum said
no. I was furious at the time but so glad when I finally found Jesus. I know
that I would have been tormented by the vow I would have made at 16, as I
wouldn't have kept it. |
| When I was
baptised in 1989 it was so right, Francis Godman told me that I would never
feel that clean again; she was so right. I went to Rayleigh Baptist regularly
until it became too hard for John to get me ready .I am still a member of the
Church and regularly see some of the other members. I am a terrible advert for
Christianity but I know that I could not live my life as happily without
Jesus. |
| My life before I married
was unhappy but happiness did filter in. My life after I married has been happy
with unhappiness filtering in. My life with Jesus is happy. I frequently let
him down but he never lets me down. Happiness and unhappiness are extremely
difficult to define. I realise that I have not made a very good job of relating
this part of my life; I have tried but the result does not completely paint the
picture. My beliefs I cannot define. |
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